I am too shy and hesitant to ask my true query. My aunt asked me to try your Mensa IQ challenge, but I am not that confident enough to take the risk because I\’m afraid I might disappoint them if I failed to pass your challenge. So to comfort my agony, I tried to take the online Mensa International IQ challenge by Mensa Norway and I scored 142 but still I am in doubt because I\’ve been a non-achiever since I\’ve been to college in contrast with what I\’ve been during my primary and secondary education days where I\’ve been effortless of everything or let\’s say I\’m bored of school and hates to interact with people around because they can\’t understand my point of view and often dismiss me before I can even prove it to them. So, I always pull out myself from engaging with others because now I always think that all I say is wrong and that others will always have a better idea or point than me because majority prefers them while I\’m being ignored. I questioned myself if I will ever be good enough with my opinions and I myself often discriminate my own ideas and will think that there will always be that someone that will have a much better opinion or contribution than what I could ever have because people have been dismissing me or even think I\’m crazy or just joking around with what I am trying to say to them. I just want to have an approval or conformity if ever I will take the challenge, will I ever be good enough to pass? or should I just refrain from doing so because I might fail because I know I am a failure now in life. Sorry for the long chat. I just want to feel valid of myself and be sure or have an insight of what could be my result afterwards? Just to give myself the courage and enough self-validation to push through and not be hesitant? And if you think I might now be qualified then that would be good so that I can avoid a failed decision again. I just don\’t want to fuel anymore my agony of being not good enough and a failure in life. Thank you for the response po. Oh, I also have a paper. Just written it out of nowhere because I\’m so used up of thinking that time is part of the physical universe. I mean I think time is not part of the perceived matter of the universe but rather a conscious representation of an observable event that can be perceived by our senses. The whole content is very informal, and I don\’t know what type of article it is. I just laid whatever my conscious self has been wondering about and I had no one to share a talk with it so I just put it on a word document just to let out my urge to share my views.